| Party Hard... Or go home! |
[16 Jan 2006|09:05pm] |
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I LOVE SARAH, TAYLOR, AND ROBYN WITH ALL OF THE HEART I HAVE!!
Sunday night rocked me hard and thats all I have to say! :)
MUCHO love to all ♥
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| My current thinking.. |
[24 Dec 2005|01:08pm] |
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work of art-just surrender |
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-Do not regret because otherwise you let the other side win, just realize that something from the situation was learned and if it doesn't happen again than its not a regret.
-Don't let people pity you. Why? there's no point but that of making you feel helpless, which you are not so FUCK pity.
-Feeling bad for yourself is just a plain waste of damn time. Get up and do something, call someone, go smoke and listen to music LOUDLY!
-Always give someone a second chance, or at least consider it. Everyone makes mistakes and you've been there too. When it comes to the 3rd. and 4th. chance, then maybe you should think about what you really want and if you really want to put yourself through it again, because it will happen again.
-Sleeping makes everything better, makes all the problems go away, puts you in another world where nothing bad can happen... BUT only for so long.
-Have morals and stick by them.
-Sometimes crying feels really good, even if its in front of the one person you promised yourself you wouldn't let see you cry.
-Ask youself if what your doing or about to do is really worth what the outcome is going to be.
-Be yourself. Even if it makes you look like a dork. Hey, it may be fun
-Have goals.
-Never give in no matter what the situation or who the person is. NEVER
-Stay in touch with all your friends wherever you go, because its amazing how fast you lose touch to them.
-Don't hate. Dislike strongly, yes.
-Always have one person you tell EVERYTHING to and still loves you after it all and doesn't get bored/annoyed listening to it because a lot of the times its the same thing over and over.
-DO have a journal you write all your thoughts in. Fuck it feels so good after your done writing and then months later looking back and seeing how much you've grown from it.
-Get priorities figured out, because it may be too late one day.
-Don't shit talk someone. Do that to your journal or that one friend who doesn't have a big mouth because yes, occasionally it feels good to "feel" superior to them, but what happens when they find out..? It may not seem like it, but they could be crushed and its not worth making someone feel that low about themselves.
-Don't ever start smoking. God, I love it and hate it at the same time.
-Do not drink and drive. Seriously call a friend, taxi, whatever. I've seen first hand what happens to those vehicles and it makes my stomach turn upside down.
I've just done a lot of thinking lately and I dunno where this came from, but whatever it feels good!
Merry Christmas everyone and I apoligize for babbling bout a bunch of nonesense!!
LOVES TO ALL!!
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| Clap your hands! |
[20 Dec 2005|08:34pm] |
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1 MORE FUCKIN DAY UNTIL CHRISTMAS BREAK!!!
Today..
:. School is really getting old and I'm starting to get the attitude I had last year when I really fucked up and it's making me sad :(
:. Got the day off from work!! MADE ME SO EXCITED
:. Washed my piece of shit and got her smelling good again!! WOOP
:. Went to Tena's, bonded with her, held my beautiful Ryleigh
:. Beat the shit out of Jake... Gettin it in return just like old times
:. Drove to Crossroads to visit O'niell with Tena
:. Smoked cigs with Tena for the first time in a LONG time
I didn't realize how much I really missed being with Tena until tonite... Reminded me of this Summer and how we'd hang out like everyday!! I LOVE YOU <3 :)
uHM did I mention one more day until Christmas vacation.. God its NEEDED!
I'm so excited for New Years! I would make a new year's resolution, but I never stick to them anyways!! Rahaha
K, well today has been completed and Tena made it 15345643486453545645646 times better so THANK-YOU!
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| Bored on a SuNdAy |
[18 Dec 2005|04:46pm] |
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:I miss summer SO much
:I miss the beach, boys half nakie, and EVEN how cold Lake Superior is
:I miss jumping off Black Rocks and my entire body freezing to death
:I miss climbing up Sugarloaf and sitting on my rock taking everything in
:I miss the "ISLAND"
:I miss wearing my little skirts, tanktops, and flip flops
:I miss not being able to see my breath when walking outside
:I miss Emily
:I miss my friends in Escanaba
:I MISS CHEERLEADING :(
:I miss sleeping in everyday
:I miss not stressing bout homework
:I miss thinking I was gonna die it was so hot!
:I miss not having any friends this summer...I was a hardcore loser
:I miss the beach a lot
:I miss frosty treats
:I miss Tena's pool and beating the shit out of Jake in there
:I miss how good a cold beer tasted on a hot day
:I miss the smell of fresh cut grass
:I miss thunderstorms
:I miss wearing a bathing suit
:I miss how long it stayed bright at nite
:I miss driving around for hours with Emily and Rachel smoking too many cigarettes
:I miss blasting the music with my windows down singing at the top of my lungs and people laughing
:I miss being tan
:I miss hearing rain hit the top of the roof
:I miss buysing sundae crunch bars with Emily and coming up with the excuse of if we don't eat them all right away they will melt
:I miss Slip N' Slides
:I miss going to Jake's with Tena and getting so high I couldn't even move
:I miss smoking all the time hahaha
I FUCKIN MISS SUMMER
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| Gift from God!! |
[17 Dec 2005|10:15pm] |
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Okay so yesterday..
Raych comes to my class before lunch and tells me Tena is in the hosptal and we go balistic!! I have never in my life been so excited, except before Rascal Flatts concert!! So we both sit with Tena and Jake for awhile and then I had to work and they didn't even care my cousin and best friend was having her baby AND I had to work at Overtime that nite too... :( Sooo to make this short Raych calls me at 8:30ish and tells me Tena is pushing and if i don't hall balls i'm gonna miss it, so YEAH I rushed down there and made it just in time...
Beautiful Ryleigh Elizabeth was born at 8:58pm weighing in at 8lbs. 6oz. and I'm the proudest Auntie in all the land!! I had absolutely no idea what to do when I first saw her except for cry because she was so beautiful!! Jake kept kissing her and saying how much he loved her and it was absolutely priceless!! This baby is the best thing that has happened to Tena besides being with Jake and I'm so proud on how well she did and how much they've both grown up from this experience!! Everything shitty that happened yesterday went away when I saw her and I can't wait to start painting her nails, take her shopping, and how to warn her about the male sex!!
Hmmmmm that's all I have to say about that!!! :) :)
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| Good Riddens |
[13 Dec 2005|11:04pm] |
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I had a really rough day:
-Woke up late
-Dropped my books before 1st hour with everything spilling out
-My frozed water exploded..splashed me everywhere
-Found out my undewear were inside out after lunch (who does this?)
-Locked my keys in my house after school, tried breaking in, got full of snow, ended up calling work embarrassed and waiting 20 minutes for them to bring my spare
-Froze my ass off at work with wet socks, shoes, and pants until 5
-I'm dead broke
-Had a crazy dream waking up wide eyed
Yes how long until Christmas vacation?? 8 Days
Ohhh and things are a lot harder then I thought they would be and it's frustrating :(
Goodnite.
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| Bling Blong |
[12 Dec 2005|12:24am] |
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| Three Things | | Three things that scare me: | | 1: | Bats | | 2: | Getting my heart broke | | 3: | Dying painfully | | Three people who make me laugh: | | 1: | Sare O | | 2: | Varney | | 3: | Raych | | Three Things I love: | | 1: | Smell of summer | | 2: | Friends | | 3: | Eating | | Three Things I hate: | | 1: | Stuck up people | | 2: | People who don't use blinkers | | 3: | The smell of Cigarettes | | Three things I don't understand: | | 1: | Why boys have no heart | | 2: | Why the sky is blue | | 3: | The point of going to school for 12 years | | Three things on my desk: | | 1: | Mountain Dew | | 2: | Nail clippers | | 3: | Lots of pens | | Three things I'm doing right now: | | 1: | Procrastinating on an FVP | | 2: | Tapping my toe | | 3: | Blinking roughly every 3 seconds | | Three things I want to do before I die: | | 1: | Get married/Have babies | | 2: | Sky dive | | 3: | Travel somewhere bizarre | | Three things I can do: | | 1: | Touch my nose with my tongue | | 2: | Back walk over | | 3: | Pop my shoulders out of their sockets | | Three ways to describe my personality: | | 1: | Random | | 2: | Fun | | 3: | Laid back | | Three things I can't do: | | 1: | Wink with my right eye | | 2: | Fly a plane | | 3: | Go a day without laughing | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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| Saturday = GOLDEN |
[11 Dec 2005|07:35pm] |
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This weekend was...MY SHIT!
-Drove to Appleton with the one and only beatiful Rachel
-Got followed by these wierdo's who kept driving by and like smiling eww..
-Shopped for 5 hrs. with crazy people and got like only two presents for people
-Drove 5 1/2 hrs. home in a blizzard
-Went to Dani's
-"Squeek, Squeek, Slap, Slap"
-Embarrassed myself
-Puking for no reason and hysterically laughing bout it
-Totally wiped out walking in the door
-O'neill and Varney having a dance contest and Varney "popping it"
-Mah talking/moaning in his sleep saying he "wants me to come with him to the test"
Everything bout last nite was crazy and I haven't that that much fun in a long time! :)
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| Uh hUh |
[08 Dec 2005|06:09pm] |
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So it's official..
I'M HAPPY AGAIN!! Ahh
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| Yummy in my Tummy |
[06 Dec 2005|05:27pm] |
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10 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME
1. I have a blankie...can't sleep without it
2. I'm the only girl in the family
3. I love music
4. I'm told I'm loud
5. I'm sexual, but i'm no slut LOL
6. My dad is my best friend
7. I'll tell you how it is straight up
8. NO boobs and i'm okay with it
9. I have two cousins and we're all exactly three months apart
10. I love to sleep
9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
1. You HAVE to be able to make me laugh
2. When wrestling let me win a few times
3. Make me feel safe
4. Love to cuddle because I love to cuddle
5. Be yourself around me
6. Be able to tell me how you feel about everything
7. Trustworthy..hard to find these days
8. Don't be sneaky
9. Just love me for me
8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY
1. purse
2. undies
3. bra
4. clothes
5. CHAPSTICK
6. money..if I have it
7. Keys
8. Cell phone
7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
1. People who don't shut up
2. Boys that suck
3. When people think they are better than you
4. Greedy people
5. Slow drivers
6. People who don't remember things
7. People who do things they know piss you off
6 PLACES I'VE VISITED:
1. Florida
2. Wisconsin
3. Minnesota
4. Chicago.
5. Lower Michigan
6. I guess only 5 places
5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Be married and be happy
2. Have kids
3. Bungee jump
4. Be successful/be able to support myself
5. Visit another country
4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF
1. Growing old
2. Not be able to accomplish my goals
3. Dying
4. Getting my heart broke..again
3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
1. Shower
2. Sleep
3. Eat a lot of food
2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW
1. My English essay
2. Nap all the time
1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW
1. If I told you i'd have to kill you
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| Oh no here comes that sun again.... |
[30 Nov 2005|11:16pm] |
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you could have spared me
so much misery
and told me you just wanted
a friend
What the fuck is wrong with me seriously!! KILL ME PLEASE...or just do naughty things to me!! :)
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| Oh MY |
[22 Nov 2005|08:06pm] |
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Wanna know something funny...
Thought I'd never say this again, BUT...
I think I have a crush! :)
....I'll never tell <3 Rahahahaha
Oh and to add because this made my night...
bLoNdEbirD540: bitch ass whore
RJewLs001: slut back cunt face
bLoNdEbirD540: clit tickler wanna be vagina
RJewLs001: suck my coc lard ass
bLoNdEbirD540: finger my butt hole with cream cheese
bLoNdEbirD540: :p
RJewLs001: lick my clit with a cherry on top
bLoNdEbirD540: piss in my mouth and poop in my eyes
RJewLs001: haha OK
bLoNdEbirD540: hahaha
bLoNdEbirD540: im dying of laughter
Yeah we love eachother<3 LOL
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| Close your eyes and you'll find a suprise! |
[22 Nov 2005|07:44pm] |
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weeeell how am i doin since you did what you done to me?
i can't lie, i sometimes cry when i think of how it used to be
i keep my friends with me, i stay busy and i don't get much sleep
BABY, that's how i'm doin since you did what you done to me
well now, waaaaaait one minute
i failed to mention those tears i cried are tears of joy
because it was no fun there under your thumb
and now that we're done, i'm gettin right every night
Tara likes this...i like this a lot! :)
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| Kiss Me and Die! |
[20 Nov 2005|01:31pm] |
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Umm can I just say its Thanksgiving in 4 more days!! :) I'm so excited for my whole family to get together and chow down on the greatest food ever made! ..And then on some of Gram's homemade pies!! YaY I'm looking forward to the extra 10lbs!!
"I Will Learn To Love Again"
(To love again...)
drowning in tears that wont be me
I will soon be free from all these chains of all this pain inside
and though I cry it wont be long till I regain the strength to know
I can go on
I will find my way through the heart break I will not give up on love
I believe
I will learn to love again I will learn to trust
once this heart can mend
I will learn to
Learn to love again
all of these tears time will dry them I will survive them
and make it through into another day all of this pain
time will heal it there’ll be a time sometime I know
I will be feel it
I will live through life without you after the hurting is done
I believe
I will find someone who deserves my touch after all the hurt is through
I will be so over you I will not give up on love
I believe yeah
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| Oh No |
[15 Nov 2005|09:25pm] |
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...I hate to say this
Buuuut I'm going to....
I really miss him... :( I think I just miss having someone there to tell everything to, someone who I'm completely comfortable around..even if im Nakie LOL! I just really miss being held..late friday nights with random movies and beer, late saturday nights staying up talking about our fucked up lives while getting wasted just us two with 151, spending all day Sunday together all scrubbed out taking showers together and laying around...
Yeah I miss him..
And thats all i have to say right now...
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| Kiss Me Beautiful |
[12 Nov 2005|12:26pm] |
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i'm taking a chance, this could be different
this could be all i'm waiting for
It's saturday, i've just got up out of bed, and i like this quote!!
TONIGHT=BITCH ASS GOOD TIME!!
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| Quiz man for you! |
[08 Nov 2005|08:54pm] |
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Top 10 and some...
Ten Favorites:
Color-: Aqua
Food-: I LOVE FOOD
Band-: Tech N9ne
Movie-: Undecided
Sport-: Football
Season-: Spring and Summer
Day of the week-: Saturday
Ice Cream Flavor-: Mint Choc. Chip
Time of the Day-: 2:30 pm
9 Curent:
Current Mood-: Happy
Taste-: Mcdonalds
Clothes-: sweat pants and a nasty tshirt! Thanks;)
Computer Background-: Green?
Finger/Toenail Color-: Chipped Pink Bikini on the toes
Time-: 8:57pm
Crush-: Who has Crush's?
Thought-: I wanna go smoke a cig!
8 Firsts:
First Best Friend-: Christina Mckinney and Rachel Tiziani...BFF's 4 Life
Love-: Ick not even going there!
Screen Name-: Tarabeara180
Pet-: Bruno
Crush-: Okay Dave Berry...2nd Grade, and No i don't wanna talk bout it! =p
Piercing-: ears
Word-: shit man i dunno
Car-: 97 Chrysler Cirrus...and she's still goin
7 Last:
Drink-: Sprite
Car Ride-: With tena a jake
Text Message-: Nick Dont recall
Movie Seen-: Transporter
Phone Call-: Rachel
Song Listened to-: stay with me-josh gracin
6 Have you ever:
Have you ever dated one of your best friends-: Yah
Broken the Law-: Yea
Been arrested-: Not yet
Skinny dipped-: Who hasn't?
Been on TV-: yes, national!
Kissed someone you didnt know-: i dunno? okay i guess i have to now!! LOL
5 Things:
You're Wearing-: socks, sweatpants, undies, bra, shirt
You did last night-: went to tena's for awhile, took a nap, watched Laguna, went to sleep
You can hear right now-: Journey hahaha
You cant live without-: My family, blankie, two pillows, friends
You do when you're bored-: Sleep, ride around, Sleep, go online, Sleep
4 States you have been to:
1-: Minnesota
2-: Wisconsin
3-: Michigan
4-: Florida
3 people you can tell anything to:
1-: Rachel
2-: Tena
3-: seems like everyone lately
2 Choices:
Black or White-: Black
Winter or Summer-: Summer
1 Person You would Do Anything For: My dad
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| Good Day! * |
[08 Nov 2005|08:19pm] |
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So today was pretty damn good I must say! Umm me and Buck are now obsessed with Janric Classic Sudoku! wierd name I know, but they rock ass for sure plus they are in the paper for free! C'mon you know ur jealous. So anyways it's Rachel's birthday tmr and she's 18 in case no one knew, so go give her a big KISS! Yeah so umm I just want to apoligize to everyone I've poured my poor little soul out to because everyone has enough drama and don't really need to hear bout mine, but just in case you didn't know it really helped and it made me OH so happy! ONEILL SATURDAY?? WHAT! its a date..a date with me!!
Quote of the day: "I thought I smelled some SLUTS!" -Lauren Varney Yup thats how my day started off..LOVE YOU! LOL
Umm anyone down to goin to that new war movie? Jar something? or Saw2? cuz im real down with that
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| I've come to my senses |
[06 Nov 2005|10:16pm] |
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So my really shitty week ended good on Friday nite...but boy do I wish I would have listened to my friends!
Me and, not even gonna give him credit, are like done! donner than done and I feel so much better! It's amazing how people who you have feelings for can totally blind you from the truth. I regret how much time i've wasted on him, but yet still so thankful fo how much i've come to learn! I have nothing mean to say about any of it, although i should, but i really did have a lot of fun while it lasted...and even though i say i wish i would have never met him, i'm so so so happy i did! Maybe it hasn't hit me yet and im sure im gonna miss him a lot...but i have a really good outlook on this whole situation rite now so i should just get it all out so on that day that is goin really bad for me and i lay in my bed feeling sorry for myself i can come back and look at this and be happy again! You really can't push things and make someone wanna be with you when they really don't even know what they want..well let me just say this i'm not wasting anymore time and i won't be around forever! I get so sad saying how i have no friends outside of school, but yet its me who turns down every oppurtunity so i can see him. Who's to say what will happen in the future, maybe he'll change, maybe he will someday wanna be with me, but until that day comes (not planning on it anytime soon) I will be enjoying my senior year at MSHS, making new friends and being able to look back 20 years from now and be like that year was my shit! So whoever is reading this let me just say I LOVE YOU! and no more sad tara anymore..:) Well i think i've done enough damage for tonite...i should write a song about it or something! ha yeah rite!!
Goodnite my dear lovers
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| This week needs to end...FAST! |
[03 Nov 2005|06:15pm] |
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Okay so I guess my hopes for this week were a little too high because its a really shitty ass week let me say!
-My report card was decent, but i could do waaay better
-Me and Kyle are Umm...Fighting? Haven't seen or talked to him since Sunday! :(
-I'm always poor
-I believe I'm getting sick
-I would really like to start working out, but im too damn lazy!
-mopped at work...yes mopped, the bucket fell, water went everywhere!
-Did I mention I haven't talked to Kyle since Sunday?? I'm really sad bout it and I miss him!
Maybe I think its just going bad because the one person I truly care bout and I are not talking over something that could have been resolved so easily! I dunno tmr is Friday and it's a half-day!
I have no other complaints for today!
Any suggestions for music on those really depressing days?? Do Tell
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